Totally Insane

Insane. Today was totally insane in so many ways. Good ways, though, I hope. Have you ever heard the phrase, ‘do one thing every day that scares you’? Yeah. That would be hard, but I was pretty scared this morning. Even though there was really no reason now that I look back…

Which reminds me of a thought I had a while ago. My mind works completely different at night, you have to understand that. So one night I was lying in bed, my parents were asleep (or so I thought) and it was about one in the morning. My door was closed, and all of a sudden I heard footsteps in the hall. Now, normally I wouldn’t have been phased, but since I was half asleep, the only logical explanation my mind could seem to find was that there was someone in the house. So I did what comes naturally when I’m so, so afraid: prayed. But, I found the next morning that the footsteps were just my mom checking on the spaghetti sauce she was cooking over night. Yeah, she checked it at one in the morning. So here I am, ‘God, protect me, protect my family,’ and it was just my mom. What’s God thinking as I pray this?? ‘It’s just your mom checking some sauce so take a pill, Colette.’ I wonder about myself sometimes.

I’ve come to some conclusions about general things in my life. Some of them I like, some of them I don’t, but now I know just a few the things I have to accept. Don’t want to write them down though.

Kim said I was insightful tonight. I almost died of happiness!