So Happy

Why am I so happy?! I’m absolutely screwed for CALM and I should be nervous about my most important recital ever which is tomorrow, but no! I can’t stop smiling and it feels like something is bubbling over inside of me. Why?! It’s great but it’s starting to scare me! I haven’t felt like this since grade nine grad, and it’s clear why I felt happy then. Now… I have no reason to be this happy, but I am!

I have a rehearsal today at 2:00 which I’m looking forward to. I love getting together with the people there, although one thing is awry. I’ve gotten the feeling ever since the south show that Julie doesn’t really like me. And it’s strange because I didn’t get that feeling from her until that day. I understand that not everyone has to like me, and not everyone will like me, but it still kind of gets me down. I’m rather torn as to what to do about dance next year. Sandy said recently that as a general rule, you shouldn’t quit anything until you’re released from it. I’m definitely not being released from dance; the people there get mad at me when I say I might not be joining next year. (Amanda: ‘Bad Colette. Bad!’) So I really don’t know what to do.