Now That I’m Strong

I have figured out how this world turns cold
 & it breaks through my soul. I know I’ll find deep inside me
        I can be the one

I survived busy June. The last few days of it were packed but at a slower pace; I took some days off work and relaxed a little. So far, the July calendar looks much more manageable.

Daniel and Christina’s wedding was so, so fun. The best time I had all month! Such a good opportunity to bust out the superwhite dance moves and let loose. They looked so beautiful and happy together. We were at a fun table: Josh and me, Mike, Brook, Justin, Dustin and Katrina, and one of Christina’s college friends. And I also got to see Jeanie again and meet her husband and little guy. So adorable! Overall, an awesome time.

The end of June also saw the end of GammaGirls. I would say it mostly lived up to my expectations. I suppose I hoped for a bit more involvement on the girls’ part (homework was often disregarded) but maybe I should be thankful for the attention they did give us. As ever, it’s hard to say if anything was learned, but if nothing else it’s served as a good starting point for a relationship with the girls I didn’t know as well beforehand.

With June over, my aims for July are to catch up on sleep, eat more vegetables and keep track of my cash flow, just like on debt shows. I’m not in debt, but it can’t hurt to know where the money is going.

As an aside, as crazy, effed-up dreams go, I had a pretty strange one last Monday night. It was a multi “chaptered” dream, each weirder than the last. Amid the chaos, though, I dreamed about the comet again: for the third (and, I would think, final) time. I was standing outside of Haultain Memorial before dawn with Mike and my dad. There was something going on in the school that had us out so late/early. The sky was serene and clear and blue. I saw Capella and Mirphak on the horizon and looked between them to see, plain as day, the arc of the comet — far more brilliant and beautiful that it would have been in real life. I said, “Look, there it is,” and stared at it for a good amount of time before leaving. I am thankful for this dream because, in some sense, I saw the comet. It just wasn’t how I expected to see it.