Life is a Dream

I’m not sure what it is, but I’ve been feeling a bit off lately. Kind of down. It’s just a bunch of little things that are compounding (as is usual with my type of stress). One thing is that I’m so hopelessly behind in math that I won’t be able to catch up. I’ll simply have to guess on every question on the unit final and hope I don’t screw up another section. I was doomed to fail trigonometry this year, I don’t know what made me think otherwise.

Life is a dream and I’m just walking through it aimlessly. My last year in high school is going so fast, and I can’t decide whether I should just let it slip by and get through with it, or hang on with both hands like I did three years ago; nothing will be the same after this year. Like, Katie and Selby are leaving the city so what happens if I lose touch? Everyone will be too busy next year to get together like we do now.

And then Kristen will be married so I’ll probably see even less of her than I do now, which is close to like seven minutes a week at church, if that. Which is sucky because we used to get together a lot more often, though it was easier when we were in the same bible study group. Still…

I was thinking this morning about the distant future. I decided that it scares me to death to think that one day I’ll be responsible for everything my mom is responsible for. I’m not positive I can do it.