Sometimes I Walk Away
When all I really want to do is love and hold you right.
How do I know you feel it?
Tomorrow is moving day, and I’m feeling strangely fine. By all accounts, I should be going a little nuts. I still can’t cook, but something in me thinks I’ll be okay. (Probably the thing that saw Subway five minutes away from the house.) I should be weeping with nostalgia. Tonight is the last night I’ll spend living at home with my family. My room has been stripped down to the daily necessities. Why don’t I feel much more sad?
I think it’s because I’m not losing anything. Not really. I’m gaining a lot, or at least, this experience will give me a lot in the long run. The things I lose here are things I should have surrendered long ago. But it’s better late than never. I am very grateful to my support system… all the people involved in moving my stuff to the new place and the people who will soften the blow of independence by coming over and watching movies with me. I doubt I’ll ever really feel lonely though. I’ll miss my brother.
However you spin it, a milestone of my life is happening tomorrow.
On a probably more entertaining note, Video Games Live was tonight and it was fantastic as usual. While there was quite a bit of repeat material from last year, it was okay because that materiel needs to be seen by all. The Zelda music… the Warcraft music… Metal Gear Solid, Chrono Trigger. So awesome. They even had a live Skype interview with the guy who invented Pong and a guy beat a Guitar Hero song on expert mode onstage with the orchestra playing along. Fun!
Mike and Justin didn’t see enough cosplay tonight so they’re going to OtaFest tomorrow. I figure it will be a pretty good warm-up for Japan. They leave on Thursday!
