I Wonder What Might Happen
if I left this all behind. Would the wind be at my back?
Could I get you off my mind
this time?
I really like my job. Directly after high school, I struggled hugely with a lack of direction. If I’d have known I was going to wind up in this job, I would have chilled the hell out quickly.
Part of my problem back then was that I loved (and still love) school and learning. Lots of doors were open to me when choosing what to do for my post secondary education, and so much of it interested me. However, most of it only on a “for interest” basis. Particularly psychology, but I knew that I didn’t want to be a psychologist. Same with astronomy, except that with math as my weakest subject, that career would have been a stunted one. In the end I opted for graphic communications at SAIT because I thought it would get me a job I was most likely to enjoy and be good at.
I’ve been at Gemini for nearly five years now and still learn new things occasionally. The most resounding adjective for my job now would be “comfortable”. And I think that’s okay, because I’ve always thought that education and growth does not necessarily need to happen at work, or at an institution with a hefty price tag.
That said, I do miss school. It motivated me in a way my vague self-directed study could never do. I woke up this morning with a massive yen to do an interesting (but for me, frivolous) Bachelor of Arts degree that I’d never plan to “use”. I would love it. Learn some art history for once, cram in some psychology, a French class, astronomy, sociology and religious studies. So awesome. Learning for the sake of learning, yes. But that’s attractive to me.
Right now, that’s not reality of course. Everyone (myself included) would say I was wasting time and money on a degree I won’t use when I should be working to save up for my future. That makes the most sense. I say no education is a “waste”, but there are more productive things for me to do right now. If I ever come into a lot of money, however, that’d be high on the to-do list, just saying.
