Uncharted Blue Sky
Friday! And this weekend took forever to arrive, believe you me. I’m going to value weekends a lot more now that I have to get up so early for school. And today, Fridays, are so long. Essentially twelve hours if you look at in it like, I get up at six in the morning and get home at six at night. Guh. Although, my typesetting professor said he could move up our last class, which is awesome.
Heh, the best thing is that we all have MSN in that PC lab for last period on Friday. That class is going to be impossible to concentrate in! But we’re learning InDesign in that class and Illustrator in layout class and Photoshop in pre-press, so by the end of this semester, I will be, like, an Adobe master. Mwahaha! It will look good on my resume… or will at least put me at the same level as every other kid on the planet who is an Adobe master and applying for the same jobs as me… whee.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my future lately, in regards to careers and stuff. I don’t know. Maybe I have a bad work ethic or something, but the thought of graduating and then getting a nine-to-five job which I will work for some forty years seriously makes me want to kill myself. But the thought of getting married and having kids fills me with joy, as is to be expected in my case. I don’t think I was meant to work a day job for life. And if I am meant to, it will have to be somewhere special. Am I in the right field? The graphics industry is all deadline crazy and stressful and based on interaction with customers… does that sound like me at all? I hate thinking about things on a commercial level. I wish I could picture myself working for a small-ish company where I’m, like, the digital guru. “Oh, you have need of a graphic designer? You’ll want to talk to our expert…” But what are the chances of that, seriously?
I really, really don’t like the uncertainty of this time in my life. Things won’t magically be fantastic ten, fifteen years from now when I will hopefully be a mother, but at least I’ll have a clue as to what I’m supposed to be doing.
